Merry Xmas

Today is our Xmas! Due to mine and my ex-husbands divorce terms, he gets the kids for winter break. In order for the judge to let us move 1000 miles away to Texas (Spring,TX right outside of North Houston) the judge gave him winter break, spring break and the whole summer. So this will be our 4th early Xmas. As soon as the kids get out of school the next day I send them back to Chicago to their father. So Xmas never really feels like Xmas. We don't do it big with super expensive gifts. The thing I love about Xmas is the process of getting there. Setting up the house with lights and decorations and the most bestest amazing favorite part is Xmas music. My Great Aunt went big this time of year and we would all spend the night and help her decorate, watch those claymation Rudolph movies and listen to music. Her house was the house to be at every weekend. She was an amazing woman. She passed away when I was 3 months pregnant with my daughter. But I'm not the crying type so when I think of her it actually makes me happy for all the time I did get with her instead of sad cause shes not here. (Death is a weird thing to me, but thats another story). Anyways, now we have to have an early Xmas it just doesn't feel the same. I dont get the whole month to just sit and watch the lights around the house as long as I want because its already Xmas for us. The kids are happy they get 2 Xmas though. Also no snow or cold weather is still weird to me. I want a white Xmas! Merry Xmas people!!